Hello Lovelies!
For three years I have been blogging, pretty much every single week, creating new content and taking who knows how many photos. And of course I love it - it's become such a big part of my life whether it's the friends I've made or the skills I've learned. Blogging has been really life changing for me, and I've definitely not lost the passion.
But what has changed is that I've got serious Imposter Syndrome. I don't know when, why or how it happened but recently I've really started to feel it. Perhaps a big part of it all is having blogged for three years. Something that comes with doing a hobby for a long time is a lot of self reflection. Frankly I've seen girls and guys who were blogging with me from the beginning flourish, grow and get better and I feel like I've stayed the same.
The standards are a lot higher than when I started. Not only are everyone's photos breathtakingly beautiful, but their writing is interesting, on trend and cleverly crafted. Nowadays I just feel like I can't compare.
And to be honest I know a lot of it is in my head. My photos aren't all terrible, and my writing isn't awful but my head is telling me that it is. These days I find it hard to write, even when bursting with ideas because it all feels meaningless and like no one cares. I look out into this sea of bloggers and I struggle to know what I can add, because I feel like they're all so much better than me.
Recently I was at an event, and I feel like this really amplified how I feel. Don't get me wrong I love blogger events but they never fail to make me question myself. The thing is I look at all these bloggers, all pretty and confident and I wonder how I became one in the first place. I feel like people will realise my writing is bad and they'll find out my photography is actually not great at all. I feel like someone will find me out.
That all said, I realise this is a hurdle that I will overcome. Whether it's by playing around with my camera or building up my writing confidence again, I'll find a way. Here's hoping that someone gets it.
Love Vicky x
Aw I'm so sorry you feel this was Victoria, but I totally understand where your coming from. I think everyone who is a blogger is comparing their stuff to everyone else, but I find the way to get out of that mindset is listing out the positives and your achievements xxx
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I'm sorry you feel like this, but I totally get it! I've been blogging for two years and the quality seems to be going up and up, so it can be hard to keep up. I do think we are the most critical of ourselves, as I personally really like your blog, photos and writing xx
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I think it's easy to doubt yourself after blogging for a while and yes, I know what you mean by the sea of bloggers who flourished while we remained the same. I have days that I feel that way too but you are well loved in the blogging community, Vicky, I hope you know that. xx
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we all feel that way at some point. It's hard not to compare yourself to others but it happens. Just know I find your photography the cutest and I am never bored reading your posts. ;)
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I think we all feel like this, honestly. I imagine even those who are at the top of the blogosphere get this from time to time, so try not to let it get you down <3 x
ReplyDeleteMartha Jane | www.marthajaneedwards.com
I'm so sorry to hear that you're feeling this way *hugs*. I definitely feel the same quite a lot. I just want to tell you that your photography is brilliant and so pretty! I think your blog is great! :) - Sarah x
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